It's my turn to mend helpdesk today... funny~ after lunch until 3+.... my helpdesk fone din ring at all ... Used Eu Huat's earpiece and fone.. Mi mending Line 2.
I was helping Xiaofen to debug her program. James was telling mi tat hw come my phone was nt ringing. Izzit I bully him... I din noe... i reali din noe. I didnt know tat my line was engaged...
I duno... after lunch, i just reconnected the line... thn i was helping Xiaofen le... after tat Dylan.. haizzzz....I'm very scared of James. I duno y. Already got an incident tat time.. abt the rubberband issue... I sensed he's displeased with mi... I swear i didn't know tat the line was engaged... i reali didn't know.... felt like crying already. I hate tis feeling! He was the one who saw my line 2 engaged... WHY LYDAT???
I really didn't mean it. I emailed him saying sorry liao... wat else can I do? It's reali my 1st time using tis line... the other times i re-directed the line to my own extension.... wah kaoz... tis thing happen again... I damn scared he angry wif mi... somemore he's juz seated 45degrees next to mi! =(
I so scared to have tis kind of feeling... making mi feeling guilty-conscious... I paid a very high price for my easily guilty-conscious feeling this yr... and irreversible price... and till now i dun even know if it's worth to pay such a high price for that anot. all i noe is tat it did help to eliminate my guilt... coz i kenot take it.
Raymond mentioned abt nice food at Lavender Food Court... yesterday.. he didn't know abt my experience at tat place. I juz went blank for a while... my HIGH PRICE~ for the incident tat happened nearby. =(
Yesterday i asked him abt the snake story.. but he stil dun wanna tell mi.... he dun wanna mi to b reminded of unhappiness bah... i noe he meant well... But i guess a more impt part was.. i wanna noe .. . y I always have problems wif tis colleague, who is also born in the year of snake... nt onli him...
5.28pm... I cried le... silently, in my cubicle... for the duno hw many umpteen times in this company... du du tong... nt pain le.. coz guilt overwhelmed mi. sadness once again... Tot of my lalala cow... if i go hm and see my lalala cow, will i smile n laff again? will my kai xin guo make mi laff today? Kai xin guo's no nid to wrk today... muz b bz playing the soccer game? coz yesterday kai xin guo told mi de... LALALALALA~ lala cow~.. onli kai xin guo will noe wat is it...