Time flies... does not wait for any1 as usual... have seem to come to terms with mum's 'condition'... nothing much i can do... and i tried to avoid going to her hse for the 2nd wk already. I'm afraid of bumping to my dad... and wan to avoid the feelings of seeing my mum in such a state, yet can't do anything about this... haiz... dreaded this... but i guess.. life still goes on... I have re-fixed another appt for her on Apr 24. But i'm really not confident of bringing her to see the specialist successfully...
Perhaps during this period of time, i've got more white hair... all due to stress? haha~ Luckily I've got frenz whom i can tok to... haha.. thank god..
Been thru alot throughout my life? Perhaps not as bad as those out in the world whom I do not know, but i guess, still considered alot, when compared to my frenz? Always been asking why why why, such hurdles and problems only occur in my family. but have never found an answer to it.. except tat 'to resign to fate' and tat 'i did not choose to be born into this family' .. .tat's wat some1 used to say to me.... sigh~
However hard life can be, I had never expected mum to becum like tis. Here possessiveness and stubborn character still strongly stay within her.... haha...
All i wanted was to bring her to see a doctor. But such a simple thing, yet hard to fulfil... Why doesn't any1 understand the imptance of bringing her to the doc? Going to visit her izn't the only important thing tat we should do... but i can't do it without my dad's help. sigh~ hopes she can go with me to the doc to seek treatment...